Happiness is all around. You just have to shed your inhibitions and let go. I've been in a 'not-happy-not-sad' phase for quite some time now. I think most people spend most of their lives in that state.
 I guess God finally said 'Enough!' and made me more happy than I've been in a long time. I met one of my favorite people in the world. A family friend whose kids I've grown up playing with. we spoke for just 15 minutes, reminiscing the old times. She told me that she's extremely proud of me. As we went our separate ways I realized that I've actually led a very good life.  We just let our problems become bigger than us, surround us and block our vision. Happiness is just around the corner.
                God has the most ingenious plans ever. Plans that are bigger than mine, grander beyond my imagination.

It's a good life. :)

Indecision.

How do you know whether the decision you're going to take is right or not? How am I supposed to know?? I wish they were some tool or some machine or a time travelling thingy or whatever that could help me decide!!!
   I mean you could weigh the pros and cons and you could ask people who've gone through the same situation before but in spite of all that I could be wrong, right? Murphy's law anyone??

God!!!!
  In times like these I usually go to my mom and rant. I tell her everything and don't really explain it to her. I just blurt everything out, everything I know and tell her the shaky decision I've made. And then whatever she says, even if she has no idea about any of it, I just go with it. Once something gets my mom's seal of approval, it is just right.
This just happened now. I went and woke up my sleeping mom and said stuff and she sleepily said ' yes, do that' and that just relaxed me. I don't know how. Now I just know that's what I'm going to do. So yeah.

Mothers!! 

जब नाव जल में छोड़ दी ,
तूफ़ान ही में मोड दी ,
दे दी चुनौती सिंधु को ,
तो पार क्या मजधार क्या .........