Shit happens....yeah well....it does..

sometimes you so badly wish for something to happen, or that nothing should change....you pray so hard and then....then what actually happens is something you never wanted. What do you do then??....Curse the almighty? Curse your fate?? Curse others??...or maybe do all of that...

Yeah right now I'm in a retrospective mood. Nothing seems to be going right. Something I so badly wanted is never gonna happen....Never...It makes me so sad...and it wasn't even materialistic.
Why did things have to be this way? What would it take for people to just change their point of view?....Coz from where I'm seeing it, its all very clear....yeah well it was jus a dream, a small fairytale dream.....and if things were jus a bit different, it would have come true.....and if it weren't to come true, why was it shattered??.....it hurts to have dreams shattered.....it really does...
Was I expecting too much??....NO...not at all....I've never in my life expected too much from life...or from others...
Was it my mistake??...Should I have never dreamed the dream??......Did I pray too hard??

After fighting so hard with fate, refusing what it was giving me....I had to take it finally..



So now what??....Do I stop dreaming???....Haven't fairy tales happened earlier??....OH yes they have...

I'm living a fairytale...Maybe that dream was shattered because I'm supposed to dream bigger and better...Maybe god has decided something else for me... and the other people in the dream with me...
If people can't see what I can now, then one day they will....and maybe then I will finally have my dream fulfilled....
Do I lose faith?....Nope....Its even stronger now....I haven't done anything wrong to anyone, have always done my duty towards the world and there is no reason why I wouldn't have the best in the world....There is no reason why anyone shouldn't have the best of the world...

And as for those who have no work but to make life difficult for others are all gonna have it back....with compound interest...LOL...

Do I stop living??....Nope...Coz my life is a gift from god and I'm not gonna waste a single moment of it regretting....I've already wasted a lot...


Do I curse people who made it difficult for me??.....Nope....coz they were doing what they thought was right....And if they actually intended to do wrong, they're gonna have it back..... God's partial to good people, you know...

So what do you do when shit happens???.........Nothing....you just clean up...

I'm not gonna wish anything bad for anyone....I'm not gonna curse myself or anyone else for things that couldn't happen coz now you jus have to move on....I'm gonna treat myself well coz I deserve it.....I'm gonna make every dream of mine come true coz i deserve it....I'm gonna fight what i feel is wrong if I think I can make it ok...

I'm gonna live my life with abandon, with passion and with compassion coz I'm worth it...and so are you..

I may not be pretty but I'm beautiful..and so are you....