PHEW.....prelims done....and univs from 30th may....guess I can chill for some time now....

Its been so long since i last made an entry...so much has happened...Don't remember the last time I could relax without worrying about exams cumin up shortly....come to think of it, I have been giving exams since ages and ages....and ages.....and ages...
and now I've almost forgotten what its like to be doing nothing..
Doing "nothing " is a talent.....one I had in heaps once upon a time...
But it is a nice feeling to be constantly busy....yeah, well it isn't nice WHILE am busy....its just nice to think about....
It also is a way to escape the grim realities of your life....I like being busy....

Grim realities...huh...Someone who knows me from a distance may say that my life's all rosy...... and lemme make it clear that its quite good....there's just one thing lacking..peace of mind....

There is this group of beggars on one particular railway station....and believe me, its like 2 to 3 families of beggars....mom, dad and a whole lot of kids....I've actually seen the parents pushing the children towards people to beg....I guess they think people would give more money to the children.....anyways right now am not going to analyze beggars...
The point is that these families are very happy, at least it looks like they are happy....Whenever I see them they are laughing among themselves, playing, running....Even when people shoo them away they don't really seem sad....they'll dip their fingers into glasses of cold drinks people are carrying, so that the people can no longer drink it and give it away to these beggars...I know this by experience...all in all they are really happy....
And we, i mean the more well off crowd, need so many reasons to be happy.....I bet if we had a survey of how many people are actually happy in Mumbai, a very small number would actually reply in positive...
I mean there's nothing we lack....there's money, good clothes, enough to eat and drink, education, friends, places to hang out etc etc etc...
there's only one thing that we don't have and probably those beggars do, particularly those beggars on that railway station...That's peace of mind.....they may having a lotta issues like not having even a square meal a day....but they are happy.....

I turned nineteen on 22nd of this month....If I had to ask for something from the almighty....it would be..."Gimme strength to defeat all my problems. Gimme the vision to look beyond material gain. Gimme the tact to find happiness in small things. Lemme not get affected by people's jealousy, their success, their failures and my own...... Gimme peace of mind...."